Saturday, January 31, 2009

Last night we went to the Draper Temple open house together with our friend Scott & Fe & their kids. We enjoyed it a lot especially the kids as they got to ride the bus from the church where we got started and watched a short video, up to the temple where we did the tour! The temple is so beautiful. The furniture, chandeliers and light fixtures are gorgeous. It was a wonderful experience to attend the open house not only with my family but also with our friends.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

The other night as I was checking my email, Andrew came to my desk and asked me to put the frame ("In His Hands" which Andrew called as Ammon's frame) down. At first I wasn't paying attention and then he begged me to put it down. This was our conversation.

Andrew: Mommy please put Ammon's frame down
Me: Why? You can just look at it even if I don't put it down.
Andrew: Please Mommy put it down I want to touch it.

So I put it down and Andrew was jut staring at it for a long time.

Me: Andrew what are you doing?
Andrew: Looking at Ammon's frame. My baby brother!
Me: Where is Ammon?
Andrew: In heaven with Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is holding him.
Me: What else you think they're doing?
Andrew: They're talking too!
Me: What are they talking about?
Andrew: They're talking about you Mommy.
Me: Why?
Andrew: Because you need to feel better. Don't worry Mommy you'll be fine coz Ammon is talking to Jesus Christ already.

"Little children have a marvelous disposition to learn. They have total trust in their teacher, a pure spirit, and great humility—in other words, the same qualities which open the door to the Holy Spirit. He is the channel through whom we gain knowledge of the things of the Spirit. Paul wrote to the Corinthians, “Even so the things of God knoweth no man, but the Spirit of God” (1 Corinthians 2:11).

And he added, “But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned” (1 Corinthians 2:14). " Elder Gérald Caussé Of the Seventy

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

I just had my ultrasound and I'm having another baby boy. I didn't get a lot of pictures since we have a copy of the whole thing on DVD, unfortunately the DVD reader in my laptop is broken and I'm still trying to figure out how to post it on my blog. The ultrasound didn't confirm or deny the quad screen test result I just had but the doctor mentioned something he saw that made me worry. At this time, I don't feel like writing all the details to try to keep myself from stressing out. I would just choose to enjoy the rest of my pregnancy and worry on things later. Whatever happens happens and I'm going to love this baby regardless. For the meantime I'm just praying that Heavenly Father will allow me to have a full term pregnancy and I can hold the baby when it's time and take him home. Everything is in God's hands now.

I would like to thank everybody who are praying for me and I hope that you will continue to pray for me. Thank you also for all the inspiring and encouraging messages. I felt so blessed to have all your support and encouragements.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

"Yes I am pregnant. I just found out today. I know having a baby is a blessing and I'm excited to know that I'm pregnant again but at the same time I am overwhelmed. All these times, the death of Ammon kept on haunting me even worse now that I know I'm pregnant. I have a lot of fears, a lot of what if's (what if the same thing will happen again etc.). Tomorrow will be exactly a year since Ammon's birth and death. A lot of people told me that I just have to move on but nobody will ever understand me unless they're a mother who have experienced the same thing. I will always love my Ammon and will forever have difficulty with the memories of that fateful day but I'm hoping that this pregnancy will somehow allow me to finally heal the immeasurable pain inside. I pray that Heavenly Father will bless me throughout my pregnancy and that He'll bless me with a healthy baby. (this was my blog entry when I found out I was pregnant)

Everyday I've been praying that Heavenly Father will bless me with a full term and a healthy baby but the dreadful day came when Russ told me that the clinic called him and that my doctor wanted to see me yesterday to discuss the blood test result with me. I got scared, they only did one test last time I saw him ( Jan 12) and that's the quad screen test. I was worried that it came back positive since they never called me back before when the result came back negative. We went to see my doctor yesterday and yes the result came back positive. I am high risk of having a down syndrome baby. The doctor explained that the result could be wrong and I personally knew a few women who have their tests came back positive and when their babies were born they were normal and healthy. I hope that would be the case to mine too but we will be able to confirm everything on Jan 28th. I thought I was prepared for the news, but I wasn't. It's easier said than done. I was stressing about it yesterday. I was miserable. I started to question Heavenly Father, a lot of why's? The more I did the more pain and heartaches I felt. I felt miserable physically and emotionally and I knew I needed help. I called Bishop Garner last night and asked if he could give me a blessing together with Russ. I'm grateful for Bishop Garner (he was just driving home from the airport as I was calling him) and for his wisdom, I know he is called of God. I'm grateful for the priesthood blessing he gave me. It was powerful and I always know that there's power in priesthood blessing. He told me that I am a choice mother , I was privileged and blessed with an angel baby (Ammon) and if my baby now is a down syndrome baby I will have the privilege of raising one of Heavenly Father's elite spirit children. He counseled me to pray more and search the scriptures. I know I should not lose contact with Heavenly Father. He is the key in gaining strength from my trials.

I woke up this morning a few hours early than Russ and Andrew. Since the 3 kids are all in school I had some quiet moments, I spent my time to search and ponder the scriptures and pray. I know prayer strengthens faith and it bring miracles. I should be willing to pay the price for an answer from the Lord. Dealing with my challenges is not easy, but the knowledge I have of the blessings promised to those who face and overcome tribulation brings to my heart the courage I need to press forward.

2 For verily I say unto you, blessed is he that akeepeth my commandments, whether in life or in bdeath; and he that is cfaithful in dtribulation, the ereward of the same is greater in the kingdom of heaven.

3 Ye cannot behold with your natural aeyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the bglory which shall follow after much tribulation.

4 For after much atribulation come the bblessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be ccrowned with much dglory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand. (D&C 58:2–4).

The Savior set the perfect example of how to endure tribulation, even when His suffering was at its greatest. He did the will of the Father, not turning aside from His divine mission. He fulfilled His responsibility amid much trial and tribulation. He sacrificed His life because of His love for each one of us, giving us the wondrous opportunity to repent and change our ways. This is the greatest comfort we can receive as we go through heavy mists in the course of our lives. As we hold fast to Christ, we will eventually reach our final destination and live with Him and our Heavenly Father, who love us so much.

I know Heavenly Father knows each and every one of us personally. When I read my patriarchal blessing this morning I am comforted to know that though I will have trials and tribulations as long as I live on this earth, I will be able to overcome them and through these trials I will be strengthened as long as I seek His guidance. It won't be until next week when I'll be able to confirm everything, but I just hope and pray and will keep praying whatever the result may be, that Heavenly Father will bless me with the strength and courage that I need. I know He has not forsaken me and He is all aware of all my struggles right now. I know He won't give me trials beyond my ability to overcome and he will provide a way for me.

Monday, January 19, 2009

We attended Declan's ( Luzvi's son) birthday party. We had a lot of fun especially Andrew.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

I have been hiding this costume for a while but as I was cleaning one of the rooms last night, Andrew saw this and he wanted to have it right then. He loves the show LazyTown and of course he was so excited when he found out this costume.

Sportacus (played by Magnús Scheving) is a fictional character from the children's television show LazyTown. He is the hero of the show. Sportacus encourages the kids of LazyTown to eat fruit (which he calls "sports candy") and play outside instead of sitting around indoors. He wants to make sure LazyTown is happy, and knows that they have to be healthy and fit if they want to be happy.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Andrew suddenly came to me and asked me to take a picture of him with his Thomas the Tank Engine Engineer hat on. He told me "Mommy I need a picture with my hat on and I will be an engineer when I grow up". Here's some pictures of my future engineer!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Monday, January 5, 2009

I've been wanting to post about Microsoft Live Search Club but I waited to get my prize just to make sure it's real. I got Xbox 360 with 20G memory, extra controller and a game for free (even the shipping is free) I paid nothing for all of these, all I did was played their games online. It doesn't take a lot to play their games especially if you're like me who loves playing word games a lot! For the past 2 months, I've been playing everyday until I got enough points to redeem for these prizes. Thanks to my friend Monah who introduced me to the Live Search Club. You can check their website here. All you need to have is a live, or hotmail account. It's all free to join and play their games, the best part you'll get cool prizes for free too!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Tonight we had the opportunity to get together with some of those missionaries who served in Philippines Cagayan de Oro Mission. Before I went on my mission, I worked as a cook in Cagayan de Oro Mission where I had a lot of opportunities serving those missionaries and even general authorities. It was a wonderful experience for me and I have met and known a lot of those missionaries whom I have served with. After 13 or 14 years, I'm glad to see some of them again along with their families. It was fun visiting with them.

(one happy boy after he had ice cream)

Friday, January 2, 2009

Today was Mel's birthday (one of our friends)! We planned on giving her a surprise. I bought a cake and together with some of our friends we went to Mel's house with the cake and picked her up to eat at Asian buffet. After eating we went shopping for a little bit. We had fun as usual! We're glad to make her day!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year Everyone! May the New Year brings you promises of new dreams to fulfill, new goals to reach and new joys to discover!

We had a fun party on New Year's Eve together with some of our friends. We had so much fun playing games, singing, dancing and making a lot of noise when it stroke to midnight.

We had a lot of food and some good friends to share them with.

We did a few games for adults, mummy wrap game and something like the newlywed game ( Each couple answers questions about their mate, the answer should be the same as their mate)
Everybody had a good time!

The kids played paper dance and freeze dance. It was Andrew's first time to actually joined the game by himself and he had a blast. He was funny though once the music stopped, he would always say "Ohhh it stopped!" You can watch it in the video below.

We also did exchange gifts for kids and adults. The kids had so much fun with all the presents they got.

Here's some of the videos we took. Fun! Fun! Fun! and more fun!