Friday, October 31, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
The guy beside us got this cookie monster pumpkin for $25. Andrew asked him if he could hold it.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Yesterday was Ammon's first birthday and death anniversary. I had difficulty with the memories. I was once again overcome by the painful grief that I thought was slowly healing. It has been a most difficult first year, and yesterday was the time of remembering. Remembering what happened exactly a year ago as I was watching my tiny baby struggled to breath and slowly died while I was watching helplessly. There is no pain like that of a mother losing her child even watching her tiny child slowly die. The pain was too much but I'm grateful for the gospel of Jesus Christ that gives me hope and assurance that I can be with him again someday. I read this poem over and over again yesterday and it helped me. This poem brings me peace.
who didn't quite make it there;
I went straight to be with Jesus
but I'm waiting for you here.
Don't you fret about me mommy
I'm of all God's most blessed
I'd have loved to stay there with you
but Heavenly Father knows what's best.
Many who dwell here where I live
waited years to enter in,
they struggled through a world of sorrow
and their lives were marred with sin.
So sweet mommy don't be sad,
wipe those tears and chase the gloom,
I went straight to be with Jesus,
from my lovely mothers womb.
Thank you for the life you gave me,
it was brief but don't complain;
I have all of heaven's glory
suffering none of the world's pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me,
I'm thankful for all you've done.
I'll be waiting here for you
in heaven up above.
I would have loved to stay with you,
And lived life by your side,
But the Lord has called me home,
I know it's hard to understand why.
Thank you mommy for making me,
You made me out of love,
I can't wait for the day I see you again
So you can see what I've become.
I'm an angel here in heaven,
The Lord's here by my side,
He wants me to let you know
He's sorry he made you cry.
He has a plan for me up here,
And a plan for you here too,
Someday we'll be together again,
And this I know is true.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Yes I am pregnant. I just found out today. I know having a baby is a blessing and I'm excited to know that I'm pregnant again but at the same time I am overwhelmed. All these times, the death of Ammon kept on haunting me even worse now that I know I'm pregnant. I have a lot of fears, a lot of what if's (what if the same thing will happen again etc.). Tomorrow will be exactly a year since Ammon's birth and death. A lot of people told me that I just have to move on but nobody will ever understand me unless they're a mother who have experienced the same thing. I will always love my Ammon and will forever have difficulty with the memories of that fateful day but I'm hoping that this pregnancy will somehow allow me to finally heal the immeasurable pain inside. I pray that Heavenly Father will bless me throughout my pregnancy and that He'll bless me with a healthy baby.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
After eating breakfast we took the kids to the Adventuredome and bought them day passes. We just let them play the whole day while Russ was running around town to find stuff to sell.
“Soar more than 100 floors above the Stratosphere Las Vegas Hotel and enjoy panoramic views of the shimmering Vegas Strip and nearby valley. Jutting 1,149 feet into the Vegas skyline, the Stratosphere Tower is the tallest observation tower in the U.S. and one of the most exciting attractions among Vegas Strip hotels. But that's just the beginning. Also offers thrills you can't find anywhere else, including international shops and one-of-a-kind rides.”
When we’re in the tower, it was indeed a heart pounding experience I couldn’t look down it made me dizzy but Andrew loved it a lot! He was enjoying so much looking down and watching the cars.
Of course we didn’t miss eating at Jollibee. We had halo-halo at Chowking too. That made our trip complete! :)
We also went to see the Las Vegas Temple. We do love to see the Temple.